The last 24 hours have been some of my darkest hours. It is 12:51 am and I can’t sleep.
I have so much negative in my life at present and it can sometimes be extremely overwhelming to continue to remain strong and positive all the time. Negative in my personal and professional life as a result of other people’s actions and personal circumstances. I find it hard to continue to stay positive at all times and this is when “the black dog” rears its ugly head.
I’m proud of myself for acknowledging my actions and are going to make steps towards healing from these.
It is ok to not be ok and I must remember this. It is a heavy load to continue to be positive all the time when life is continuing to throw you lemons…. but with love, light and faith I will get through this.
I’m proud of myself for even just having the courage to put myself out there to acknowledge my demons. I will get through this. I will take day by day and reconnect with my inner child ~ nurture her and nurse her back to health so I can then I turn nurture all of my little humans who rely on me every day ~ my two amazing children and my current and past students.